Fears

My sister and her husband moved to France yesterday. Maybe I should say "left for France yesterday" instead because I don't think they are there yet even now. I've been praying for them and their flock of luggage to all make it there safely without a hitch. But on the other hand, I've also been praying for their car to sell, and my brother to get a job, and those things haven't quite worked out yet. o.O

Lately I've been noticing how scared I am about this semester. It isn't about grad school being hard, and it isn't even about paying the money I don't have (although that is scaring me- but it is not what's eating my lunch). I'm scared for my relationships.

You see, I keep getting this strong urge to quit Navigators that I couldn't explain until last night. That's when I really started thinking about why I have been so anxious. I have never been around a group of people this long since I was at Bell Manor, and there is a big part of me that doesn't want to be. Then again, this is why I chose to stick around at A&M in the first place- to deal with relationships lasting longer than 2 years. I just didn't think I would be so nervous about it as it looms closer and closer. With a few exceptions, I feel like I don't want to keep up the friendships I have built and would much rather be fleeing the country. I know my sister is scared too, but I've got to admit that I'm pretty jealous.

Opportunities

Okay, so it has been a while... but it's not like anybody reads this anyway, so I don't think I'll be hearing any complaints. Something profound just happened so I figured I'd mention it.

At the bus stop today, I met a man from Chad. We talked about French, travel, economics... you know how it goes. Meet a stranger, tell your life story. In any case, here's a bit of our conversation:

JUSTICE: So have you ever been anywhere like Chad?
ALLISON: Sadly, no. I would really like to, but I've never been out of the United States.
JUSTICE: Why not?
ALLISON: I guess I've never really had the opportunity.
JUSTICE: You have to make your own opportunity, no?

Ain't it the truth? Whenever there's something you would really like to do, you have to make it happen. You can't wait for the chance to come around. Go! Move! Grab life by the horns (and saw 'em off)!

[Wow, I just made a Dodge and anti-t.u. statement at the same time.]

I thought it was an interesting statement. I hope I get to see him again.